I have found a peace that ploughs on through the storm. I have found a joy that jumps over sadness. I have found a love that lights up every room. I have found a trust that teaches how to rest. I have found a grace that guides me by the hand. I have found a strength that stands like a mountain. I have found... I've found You.
(Source: naniithran)
i want that wall. to always remind me where i’m gonna hit
(Source: banfred)
(Source: leebeeloves)
It’s Crazy.
Here I am, thinking I’ve got my whole college career planned out. And a great big part of my life too. And then here comes God and goes, “nope, not what I have planned for you”. And everything I had planned out is all of the sudden gone. I prayed intently about California State University Long Beach. I planned my classes around it and planned to attend there in the fall. I laid my “fleece” before the Lord saying “Lord, if I get in, I will go. But if you don’t want me there, then let me be denied”. So why was I so in shock when I was denied? I guess I had totally expected admittance to the school. I mean…I graduated High school number one in my class at the mere age of 16. I got perfect scores on both of the categories in the high school exit exams. And I never received one A- my whole high school career. I got straight A’s last semester in classes like Anatomy and Physiology 1, Statistics, and Human Microbiology while working a job and being involved in choir here and even got accepted to CSULB when I applied fresh out of high school. So why not now?
Because I think God has bigger plans for me. And I wish to learn what they are. I’m getting a passport next week. Crazy. And right now, I’m basically open to anything. I’m looking into studying abroad in Italy, Scotland, or just going to China. Or maybe, just maybe, taking a semester off and traveling. Here I am sitting on a cliff, ready to jump, with no idea what below holds.
But, I don’t want to forget to run to God through it all. So many people have me in their prayers, and I so dearly appreciate it. One person in particular, who I so highly respect, has me in their prayers. And this is what he told me. “This is what I got…That in this season, you get to romance God with your faithfulness”. And it blew me away. God, I get to romance YOU! You have romanced me for so long. It’s my turn. And I will be faithful to follow if you lead. So Lead me.
let me explain a little about myself to you (and see if you can follow):
I’m artistic. And I love fashion. It’s my dream job. But, I don’t like spending money on clothes or wearing the same things as other people. Therefore, thrift store shopping is where it’s at for me.
Although I love fashion and that would be an incredible job, I’ve found my calling to be higher. I love kids. Love them, and because of that, I worked in a nursery for two years and am immediately drawn to them. I want to work in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit as a nurse, helping children to catch a glimpse of happiness and joy every day despite sometiems awful circumstances.
I’m weird. the kind of weird where you think I’m this shy little girl, but really you can’t even keep up with me because one moment i’m fist pumping while I stand awkwardly and the next having a panic attack because you tried to touch my bellybutton and i flinched.
But I also am sometimes shy. If you’re good-looking, I pretty much lose a bunch of my courage to come talk to you.
I wish guys would just talk to you if they think you’re pretty. I respect guys so much that do, because I know it’s tough. If a guy has the courage to ask me out, I pretty much won’t turn them down for a first date, out of respect that they gained enough courage to risk rejection. Hey, I may not go on a second, but you might get that first one.
I’m really talented at making unattractive faces. I sometimes practice in front of the mirror.
My lifelong dream is to travel. Travel everywhere. Over the states and everywhere out of the country. Italy, Germany, Scotland, New York, Chicago.
I’m driven and take my education seriously. Therefore, I cannot understand how some people care so little about school and just don’t turn assignments in. Its above my head haha. But then again, I pay for my own education. I guess that’s why I don’t take it for granted. When you work a job and miss fun activities so you can put your way through expensive tuition, you make it work.
I pray for my future husband every day because I am looking forward to meeting the man God has molded for me who’s better suited for me than any other guy. I can’t wait to have the man who I’ve saved myself for.
I don’t drink or smoke and I’m not particularly attracted to those things either.
I’m lucky. Blessed, really. I have an incredible family who has been there for me and my parents have modeled such an incredible relationship for me.
(Source: withlove-meehan)